GRAFITTI : Mentaliti Rebel

RIPOSTE

2012-02-03T15:35:00.000+08:00

Riposte
and
the only way is one
exit
emerge from nowhere
hurts remained deep
but
bury the hatchet
is the only interest we should have in mind
if only
we can reach the point of
united we stand

Riposte
again.

REVIEW : DARE TO BE A CHAMPION

2012-02-03T15:28:00.000+08:00

Not exceeding my expectation but worth reading. Simple English and easy to understand and that was a plus point. A bit letdown here was there a bit of mispell and error in editing. That was forgiven though but on the large scale should not have happened since this is Lee Chong Wei mind you. World number 1 in the world. Hence me like this phrase if you dare to win then you also dare to lose. That inspiring. This is from our own shores and not from outside. There's a lot of book telling about one biography, well you can name it a lot outhere but what fascinating here are this is our own stars. Hopefully Nicole once finished her career in squash will eventually come out with her own book and surely i`ll be purchased it since well she is Malaysian and we`re all can relate to her story just like this book. An ordinary boy who achieved stardom. It can be happened to anyone if there a iron will then there`ll be a way. Hopefully after LCW hang up his racquet someone will emerged as a flagbearer in the future superseries tournament. To see is to believe and to read is to know. So get yourself a copy.

SOFTLY SLIP AWAY

2012-01-12T17:22:00.000+08:00

leaving me
out
from any equation
losing one side of my sanity
near soul catastrophe
but i`ll survived the tides against me
reticent and silently build back my innerself
to see another day of light
gaining back my sweet conscioussness
is the biggest victory
of my life
so i softly slip away
from your present reality
rather than watch me cry a river of sorrow
me will just smile
hands in my pocket
with a serene look in my eyes
everywhere is the same
here and back
well
everything you want
sometimes is not
everything you need
the point is
life goes on
and we're growing to be a better
human beings....

NOTHING

2011-12-15T17:18:00.000+08:00

Nothing to say and to write. Mind just like a empty highway. And there's a lot of junction and the journey is just begun. Emmm dun know y i`m still writing....only the reason of well put somethinglah at least this blog have a new entry will ya....

MALAS - TEACHER'S PET

2011-12-15T17:14:00.001+08:00

Bilaku pejamkan mata
Segalanya menghampiri
Terlayar rasa semalam
Termanggu sejenak

Malasnya ku melangkah ke sana
Mencari sempadan kehidupan
Yang selalu hilang sebelumnya
Di sebalik satu kenyataan

Sesungguhnya malas itu indah
Tanpa ku terlibat dengan dosa-dosa
Dalam berusaha mencari sesuatu

Kekurangan di sini
Sudah cukup buatku
Apa yang ku genggam
Itulah harapan

Kelebihan yang datang
Adalah kesyukuran
Selagi dapat menyedut ketenangan
Sehingga terasa di jiwa..
Nikmatnya

Kelebihan yang datang
Adalah kesyukuran
Selagi dapat menyedut ketenangan

hmmm….. malasnya

NB: Satu metafora buat me myself on this blog on why there is no apdet till now...this very day...hmmm malasnya.

DINGIN

2011-09-22T17:48:00.000+08:00

Ya, hari yang dingin. Sedingin angin di KL yang bertiup di luar cubicle ku. Lebih tepat diluar window menghadap hotel mewah disebelah workstation ku. Memang dingin hari ini. Sewaktu datang kerja hujan gerimis tapi cukup dingin. Adakah malam ini akan sedingin siangnya?...Emmm seberapa pantas waktu berlalu dan sabtu ini MU akan berentap lagi so GGMU...:)

PREDICAMENT

2011-08-26T09:10:00.000+08:00

Every one of us have their own predicament. Comprehend and compromise is the only way to go. No need argumentation that lead us to nowhere but abyss. Yes. Sorry no cure. What a predicament?. Then hurts remained. Well, say much or nothing there a consequences. Silence reigned at last.

ULTIMATUM

2011-08-22T16:58:00.000+08:00

Goodbye
the ultimatum
if ever you make it out
from the highway of infinite sadness
gateway car of hope
then
spending the season in the abyss
was a distance memories to be remember well

If
there a will
then there a way

The choices is your to be made
wisdom might be your saviours
the pain only last
a moment when you see the light
at every end of a tunnel...

If not now, when?

THE PAST IS THE PAST

2011-08-06T14:43:00.000+08:00

And hopefully the futures will be brighter with zawary and the family i`ve now. And the past is the past. Forget about it and step forward. Never stand still cause time wait for no one.

Time
as a wind blowing
there a hurts in the past
scattering all around
but time yet again
is the healers
and the past is the past
belongs to the time that will never return...
must we
dwelling?
or step forward
and growing...

FUTURE FOOTBALL STAR IN THE MAKING

2011-08-06T14:27:00.002+08:00

Zawary in the mood.

Well, zawary strike a pose again ala model as his angah said in the FB today. Ni zawary tengah mood bagus bolehlah posing kalau tak sampai besokpun dier takkan posing. Emm this little boy each days is showing more and more antics. Just me hope we both can handle him in the very best way and teach him a good value in this life. Show him the way and grow up to be a wise man. Insya-Allah amin.

YOU. YES YOU MAYBE THAT...

2011-08-06T14:22:00.002+08:00

You...yes you now in my mind.

What zawary had in his mind to say but at the moment the language that comes out from his mouth only he himself understand it. At best me and his mom will guessing. Keep on guessing until he can utter a word that everyone will know the meaning of it. And angah say he is like a model but well at his best mood maybe it true but when zawary "meragam" then gerammmm....;)

HARI INI

2011-08-05T17:13:00.000+08:00

Hari ini. Cuaca amat baik. Tanpa hujan dan alhamdulillah aku sihat untuk terus menjalani ibadah puasa yang punyai banyak fadhilatnya yang tak mampu aku ungkapkan diruangan blog yang sekecil ini. Ya, betapa kerdilnya aku disisi-Mu untuk diperumpamakan bahasa ibarat. Semoga ada terus kekuatan dalaman untuk terus berpuasa waima dugaan diluar sana amat banyak. Aku admit bahawasanya mata yang dianugerahi-Nya ini masih perlu dilatih untuk sama berpuasa kerana secara jujurnya amat banyak keindahan diluar sana yang perlu aku hadkan melihatnya sekalipun keindahan itu adalah jua ciptaan-Nya dan kerana itu aku berasa amat kerdil. Siapalah aku ini tanpa izin-Nya untuk terus bernafas sampai saat ini.

Renungilah hadis berikut:-

Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda yang bermaksud:
“Tidak akan masuk syurga seseorang yang ada di dalam hatinya perasaan sombong walaupun sebesar zarah”. Seseorang lelaki berkata, Sesungguhnya seseorang itu suka pakaian dan kasutnya cantik. Baginda s.a.w. bersabda,”Sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Indah dan Allah suka kepada keindahan”.

Maka haruslah kita sedar yang kita ini semua adalah hamba-Nya yang tak punya apa-apa kecuali yang dianugerahkan oleh Allah swt sahaja. Bersyukurlah dan muhasabahlah.

IMPIAN RAMADHAN - MAN BAI Feat RAIHAN

2011-08-05T17:03:00.001+08:00

Ku mengharapkan Ramadhan
Kali ini penuh makna
Agar dapat kulalui
Dengan sempurna

Selangkah demi selangkah
Setahun sudah pun berlalu
Masa yang pantas berlalu
Hingga tak terasa ku berada
Di bulan Ramadhan semula

Ku mengharapkan Ramadhan
Kali ini penuh makna
Agar dapat kulalui
Dengan sempurna

Puasa satu amalan
Sebagaimana yang diperintahNya
Moga dapat ku lenturkan
Nafsu yang selalu membelenggu diri
Tiada henti-henti

Ku mengharapkan Ramadhan
Kali ini penuh makna
Agar dapat kulalui
Dengan sempurna

Ku mengharapkan Ramadhan
Kali ini penuh makna

Tak ingin ku biarkan
Ramadhan berlalu saja
Tuhan pimpinlah daku yang lemah
Mengharungi segalanya dengan sabar

Ku mengharapkan Ramadhan
Kali ini penuh makna
Agar dapat kulalui
Dengan sempurna

Ku mengharapkan Ramadhan
Kali ini penuh makna
Agar dapat kulalui
Dengan sempurna

Ku memohon pada Tuhan diberikan kekuatan
Ku merayu pada Tuhan diterima amalan

Selangkah demi selangkah
Dengan rahmatMu oh Tuhanku
Ku tempuh jua

NB: Semoga amalan diberkati oleh-Nya amin. Lagu yang amat penuh makna sempena Ramadhan. Bersamalah menghayatinya agar Ramadhan kali ini lebih bermakna dari segi pengisian. Insya-Allah.

HUJAN

2011-08-04T17:38:00.000+08:00

Telah hari ke-empat di bulan Ramadhan yang penuh barakah ini. Di luar tingkap cubicle ku, hujan semakin lebat turun membasahi bumi Allah ini. Sementara di minda ku wajah permata hatiku bermain-main di ingatan. Waima setiap hari ku dakapi wajah itu tetapi rasa rindu itu pasti menjengah setiap kali aku ingin pulang dari ruang pejabat ini. Hujan tak menunjukkan akan reda tapi pulang tetap pulang dan baju hujan ku pun telah ready untuk disarung. Selamat pulang papa....

15 MONTHS NOW...

2011-07-20T21:05:00.001+08:00

Freeze and papa got you napping..

Look at the expression and the eyes. Strike a pose and luckily i`m fast enough to captured this moment in time. Zawary is now in his 15month of his existence and we both are grateful cause alhamdulillah he is growing without any major complications about his health. Getting smart by each day and today his mom asked me to buy him a golf set. What? But hehe only a toy not a real one mind you.

FROM A PAST COME THE 4 ARTS 1 1990

2011-07-05T16:00:00.003+08:00

Seems time past us by at very fast paces and now each of us already makes a living on their own. But life is all about progress and everybody changes nevertheless. As a tribute to those years herewith a photograph. And it was a fitted tribute via this below song title Photograph by Nickelback and surely how you remind me huh for those memories that will remains forever. However just enjoy the song and read the lyric carefully. What a thought then.

Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red?
And what the hell is on Joey's head?

And this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we'd ever went without

The second floor is hard for sneaking out
And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I've broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it's too late
Should I go back and try to graduate?
Life's better now than it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in

Oh oh oh
Oh God I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye

Remember the old arcade?
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hanging out
They said somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how if feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since God knows when

Oh oh oh
Oh God I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

I miss that town
I miss their faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it
If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
Every time I do it makes me

HAMBA - MU

2011-07-05T15:44:00.001+08:00

Hamba-Mu
by Mawi & Akhil Hayy

OWh ho..

Mawi:
Ke arah satu perjalanan
Dalam sebuah kehidupan
Demi untuk mengecapi
Hasrat murni di dalam hati

Akhil Hayy
Usaha dengan doa itu,
Masanya akan tiba
Dengan restu Illahi
Kelak pasti akan ditemui

Chorus

Suluhkan cahaya hati di terang (Allah)
Tunjukkan jalan
Seandainya hilang (Allah)
Tegakkan perjalanan
Yang bakal ditempuh
Tegakkan semangat bila runtuh,
Setibanya disisimu ku berserah,
Terimalah aku
Hamba mu Allah

Owh ho owh ho
Hambamu Allah.....

Mawi
Sekiranya takdir menguji
Cekalkan hasrat dihati
Semoga kesusahan bisa
Mengajar erti terus azam

Akhil Hayy
Usaha dengan doa itu,
Masanya akan tiba
Dengan restu Illahi
Kelak pasti akan ditemui

Chorus:
Suluhkan cahaya hati di terang (Allah)
Tunjukkan jalan
Seandainnya hilang (Allah)
Tegakkan perjalanan
Yang bakal ditempuh
Tegakkan semangat bila runtuh,
Setibanya disisimu ku berserah,
Terimalah aku
Hamba mu Allah

NB: Currently lagu favourite for my son zawary...kalau ubah channel dah pandai nangis mintak tukar balik channel 106 tu n kalau ada doa nabi sulaiman tu jgn tukar jawabnya zawary bukak radiolah....this little boy.

NAPALM DEATH...

2011-06-17T11:54:00.000+08:00

Not a chemichal warfare i tell you. But a band ohh well thrash music that they used to sing grindcore and well whatever the term are but they`re coming to our shore. Not for the first time i guess and come 260611 they`re coming back here to performed again. For sure me will not be there as for the moment me can't afforded such a luxury mind you i`ve a kid now...but for those who make it there just sensibly enjoying the music as the priviliged one. Yes you.

ZAWARY SHOWING OFF.....

2011-06-17T11:22:00.002+08:00

Zawary in a moment.

Zawary is on the way back home for weekly swimming session at Putrajaya Precinct 11 but now we`re all preferred to go to Precinct 16 as the water level there is deeper and we can have a dive into the pool. My zawary is getting on his feet now and hopefully by the next month he`ll walking on his feet then. Somehow this picture really captured my attention and impromptu snapshot can produce a good picture like this. Well me obliged and put it here as zawary in a moment like this. Me too really can't remember as when this photo been captured but surely with my nokia nevertheless. A touch of brillliant moment and immortalised here.

MATANYA TELESKOP HATINYA KAPAL DALAM BOTOL KACA

2011-06-07T21:11:00.000+08:00

Tulisan sufian abas. Ya, ini sai fi dan fiksyen pop dari sufian abas.

Satu kelab jiwa luka yang invisible diciptakan secara prosa didalam buku poket ini. Tak perlu edan atau kasmaran tetapi ambillah sedikit waktu untuk mencerna satu lagi ilham karya dari beliau yang hatinya lumat dikunyah oleh siapa-siapa yang bernama wanita. Tak kiralah ianya hanya satu kilasan di pavilion atau di catwalk klcc. Ini teleskop dan kapal kaca dalam bentuk kata-kata.

Emmm KLAOK maybe the next purchase and Anarki di KL is very much in my thought but let see my poket first. Hehe...

SIAPA LAGI KALAU BUKAN...?

2011-06-07T21:05:00.000+08:00

Ini belasungkawa
paling ringkas dalam apokaliptika jiwa yang anarki
ambuigiti dan melankolik
annihilasi yang infiniti
ke atas sang jiwa yang emptiness
soul abyss paling dasar
mana tidaknya
tak kala cinta Larissa
dilelong di ebay.com
dan dibeli oleh siapa lagi
kalau bukan
sufian abas

nah
puntung rokok ditepi longkang itu
rupanya telah menikam seluruh ruang nafas aku
hampir hilang satu anggota warasku
yang masih berfungsi

teleskop
pasti teleskop itu yang menipu aku
yang Larissa itu
masih sunti

nyatalah
hatiku ibarat kapal kaca yang terhempas
dan pecah sejuta
antara serpihannya
adalah aku yang edan...

SMALL BUT CUTE

2011-05-24T11:38:00.001+08:00

Yamaha R125

Sibling of R1. What else to say about this monster. Small but cute yet pack some powerful trait from his brethren. Ahh admire again - me. Replica of VR racing machines and what else do you need anymore. A champion bike for a regular guys like you and me outhere. Not anyone will get this R125 and me included. Admiring from afar yet one day nobody knows.

KAWASAKI 1000 - RM82K?

2011-05-24T11:34:00.002+08:00

Awesome machine.

Will you ever fork out that sum of money just to get to this machine. Yes awesome but exorbitant prices might hindered you from have it unless you`ve extra dough to burn just like that. Just admire - me. Imagine me on this ride then Puchong - BB will just be a blink of the eyes. Ahh another wishful thinking. Just.

YAMAHA LC 135CC

2011-05-24T11:30:00.002+08:00

Cool and Rugged.

Look awesome huh in those Racing Boy accessories. But maybe it`ll cost you around say RM3k approx. Me just guessing at the very best. For a start this is what me have in my mind if me do have extra dough to spend. Small but rugged bikes for small bikers like me nevertheless. Most important things for me are this LC packed a power in his segment. Well not for now me is beaming alone. Soon maybe but all is about possibilities. Life is full of surprises. Who knows around the corner me just struck a gold. Haha...

SOUL ABYSS = ANARCHY

2011-05-24T11:27:00.000+08:00

Anarki
merata-rata
melata-lata
di stesen LRT
jiwa yang kusam kusat masai di tepian lebuhraya kehidupan
atau dipavement Jalan Pudu
nyenyak melayan mimpi yang panjang
diulit angin malam Kuala Lumpur yang berbau materialistik
tapi aku masih disini
bergelutan dengan anarki-anarki yang abyss
pergolakan yang solitary
diam memerhati
tapi
Kuala Lumpur Aku Okay.

PERGOLAKAN

2011-05-24T09:49:00.000+08:00

Dunia ni ada banyak pergolakan. Pergolakan politik, jiwa, ekonomi, kuasa dan macam-macam lagi pergolakan yang tak akan habis untuk ditulis disini. Terpulang kepada anda untuk terlibat sama atau duduk diam memerhati setiap pergolakan itu. Kita bukan superman yang boleh menukar situasi anarki itu. Malah anarki dijiwa sendiri itupun masih bergelendangan tak tentu hala.

So hari ini pergolakan politik semakin berleluasa dimana-mana menandakan tarikh election semakin dekat. Sudahkah anda mendaftar. Tak kira apa yang anda pangkah itu hak anda tapi pergilah mengundi. At least suara anda counted bukan setakat menyalak diluar pagar tapi mengundi pun tak.

Itupun satu pergolakan namanya. Emm sudah-sudahlah tu.

SOMETIMES

2011-05-21T10:29:00.000+08:00

In life we just need to let it go and move on. Progress is all of us need to keep on living. The past is only a history that will remains beneath us all. Please move on with your own lifes and all apologies from me individually. Bury the hatchet and hurt no more.

Anarki Di Kuala Lumpur - Mohd Jayzuan

2011-05-20T22:39:00.000+08:00

Cara Membeli 'Anarki di Kuala Lumpur' Versi Hard Cover
Tulisan Mohd Jayzuan

Sempena penerbitan Anarki di Kuala Lumpur, sebuah novel oleh Mohd Jayzuan, Sang Freud Press akan menerbitkan 200 naskhah edisi kulit keras terhad.

Kalau anda mahu sila:
1.Masukkan RM35 (Harga ini termasuk untuk pos ekspres) ke akaun berikut
:nama: irman b noor no akaun : 162085468109 (maybank)
2. Lampirkan bukti pembayaran melalui emel (dvinecomedy di hotmail dot com)
3. Sila nyatakan alamat
4. Buku akan dihantar pemuda ganteng bermisai tirus bermotosikal garang.
5. Penghantaran akan dibuat setiap Selasa

Terima kasih.

Jom support frinjan...buku lain tulisan beliau 28hari: Jurnal Rock 'n' Roll, Nota2 gila, KLAOK and others....google Sang Freud Press or Silverfish for more info.

28 Hari: Jurnal Rock 'n' Roll

2011-05-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

Buku yang sehonestntya aku baru purchase online at silverfish. Belum habis dibaca tapi cukup membuatkan aku berfikir semula tentang life secara lebih global. Dalam jiwa semua itu ada anarki yang tak keruan. Dan buku ini offer satu escapism. Satu norm yang bila kau baca kau dapat feel back something inside your soul. Ruang fugitive yang maha besar. Bebas meneroka ke infiniti. Buat aku ketagih lagi untuk terus membaca dan membeli...

ZAWARY ON APRIL 2011

2011-05-20T22:14:00.000+08:00

Zawary is now one years old and this is somehow my favourite photos of my son. He is getting bigger now and feed with supplementary milk now with DL123. Still breastfeeding with his mom off course and comes 19th May will receive one year injection postponed due to fever last month. Hopefully this time around he is fine cause after this injection surely zawary will have fever again. Hopefully he'll recovered fast enough.

BIRTHDAY CAKE 1 YEARS

2011-05-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah zawary is now over one years old now and he is getting on his feet now slowly but surely. Happy birthday zawary and hopefully you`ll soon be walking on your own. Finger cross come Aidilfitri zawary is walking by himself. Insya-Allah amin.

LARI

2011-04-05T17:41:00.007+08:00

Satu escapism
lari dari realiti
menjadi fugitive tanpa identiti
melakolik di seperjalanan usia
makin jauh makna humanity
di +-x/ oleh pergolakan minda mentaliti rebel
tak pernah berhenti mempersoalkan segala sesuatu
aku lari dari norm
tapi masih ada perimeter yang aku perlu hormati
dan invisible coat ini still my best friends ever
redemption for us all dan
lari itu adalah subjektif
larilah semahunya selagi kau bernafas....
tapi jangan kau lari dari mati
kerana mati itu ada disisimu
menanti waktu menjemput kamu pulang ke asalnya...
perhimpunan maha besar
jua perhitungan kali penghabisan
takdir sendiri menanti...
satu destinasi.

LATEST

2011-03-25T20:27:00.004+08:00

Aku sebenarnya bukan malas atau hiatus cuma sometimes procastination is keep hindered me from updating this grafitti. Latest tentang aku, now i`m in BB ohh well bukit bintang. Ada sejuta kisah manusia berlaku disini setiap hari. Cuma aku buat tak tahu dengan hanya mengambil tahu yang aku ada kat sini hanya untuk meneruskan kelangsungan hidup keluarga aku. Aku dah ada family sekarang, seorang anak yang semakin pantas mencapai apa yang ada didepannya. Tak kiralah benda tu handphone atau remote control tv leper samsung ku yang masih punya outstanding payment, cepat benar tangan si budak kecil ini. Budak itu namanya zawary yang secara rawaknya wujud dalam diri ini sejak aku mula cari makan dengan kudrat empat tulang yang dianugerahi Allah swt ini dan alhamdulillah hari ini direalisasikan dengan kelahiran seorang baby yang comel. Aku sendiri pun macam tak percaya saat aku mengazankan baby ku sendiri. Nervous macam tak boleh nak function dah aku punya mentaliti. Tapi semakin hari bila zawary ku itu semakin membesar aku mula captured my status as a father. Emmm, aku kat BB sekarang dengan waktu kerja yang tak sama macam dulu. I`m coping it well but slowly i might say but however me do manage. Alhamdulillah kerana masih ada kudrat until this moment. Betul kat BB ini banyak kisah yang terselindung. The facade of Kuala Lumpur. Kat sini adalah satu gelanggang petualangan kehidupan. We all ada perimeter yang tersendiri! Maka dengan itu aku hanya memerhati sekeliling dan terus bernafas. Pinjamkan aku Kuala Lumpur Aku Okay kalau kau dah purchase. Untuk RM25 itu aku boleh beli pampers, DL 123 and nestum cereal untuk baby zawary ku. Sorry frinjan sebab aku tak support korang sampai femes. Economy wise tak permit me to do so. That what i mean by a perimeter yang exist dalam diri individualiti tanpa sometimes kiter even realised about it. Invisible coat that shield us all from all the nasty things named world out there. This is life and we all breaths the same air.

SMILE IN EVERLASTING SMILE

2011-01-21T18:46:00.003+08:00

Cause smile will bring you near to me. Ewahh...Bee Gees song. This is quite an old picture taken by his mom quite a few month back then but only now that me uploading here in my blog for the sake of our memory. Sweet sweet smile of my son. Emm what else to say now cause me is draining now. Out of words really. But to say i`m less inspired then that was overstatement. Maybe in the hibernation period now. Constructive destruction ala Coldplay. Hehe perasan lah tu....

MY FAVOURITE POSE

2011-01-21T18:43:00.001+08:00

Only now that me realise that this is my son favourite pose. Well strike a pose now my baby zawary. Now he is getting to his 10month old coming this 24th January. And only now my blog has been updated for quite sometimes. Maybe a bit busy here and there plus laziness all around me haha 21st century breakdown sort of.

SEKEJAP AKU NAK JADI...

2010-09-07T17:51:00.003+08:00

Philosopher. A bit maybe. So here me go...

Circumstances is only obstacles that need to be overcome and survive another day.

Emm oklah just roaming in my head this few days so me put it here to just rest and out of my mind literally.

REAL STORY OF LIFES

2010-08-21T19:46:00.002+08:00

Tin, botol sara hidup

ALOR GAJAH: Dua beranak yang hidup serba daif di Kampung Lendu Dalam, di sini, tetap tabah mengharungi Ramadan untuk mencari rezeki halal walaupun hanya bekerja kampung.

Setiap hari, Abd Rashid Dol, 60, dan anaknya, Mohd Firdaus, 21, mencari tin dan botol kosong bagi menampung keperluan harian mereka.

Hasil usaha dan ketekunan mencari rezeki, mereka memperoleh pendapatan sekitar RM150 sebulan hasil penjualan tin dan barangan terpakai untuk perbelanjaan Syawal yang bakal menjelang.

Abd Rashid berkata, selepas kematian isteri akibat kanser payu dara kira-kira 16 tahun lalu, dia terpaksa menjaga anaknya itu.

Menurutnya, nasib Mohd Firdaus agak malang apabila tidak mendapat pendidikan di sekolah dan hanya belajar setakat darjah tiga akibat kesempitan hidup.

“Mohd Firdaus mungkin tidak seperti remaja lain yang menikmati keindahan alam remaja apabila dia bersama saya sepanjang masa demi mencari rezeki untuk meneruskan kehidupan kami berdua.

“Setiap hari dia mengayuh basikal lebih 10 kilometer untuk menjual barangan yang kami kutip ini di sekitar Alor Gajah.

“Kami juga jadikan rumah pusaka lama bersebelahan rumah Projek Perumahan Rakyat Termiskin (PPRT) yang kami duduki sebagai lokasi penyimpanan botol dan tin kosong sebelum ia dijual kepada peraih,” katanya ketika ditemui, di sini, semalam.

Katanya, dia bersyukur kerana memperoleh bantuan daripada Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat (JKM) RM300 sebulan untuk membeli keperluan harian walaupun tidak mencukupi.

“Sepanjang Ramadan ini, kehidupan kami sedikit berubah apabila banyak pihak prihatin termasuk agensi kerajaan yang menyumbang keperluan harian, malah menikmati juadah enak dan bantuan hari raya.

“Kami bukan mahu menagih simpati atau ihsan daripada orang ramai, cuma berharap anak mampu menjaga saya pada hari tua kelak apabila sudah tiada kudrat untuk meneruskan pekerjaan seperti sekarang “Malah, saya juga berharap ada pihak mahu mempelawa Mohd Firdaus bekerja bagi menambah pendapatan sekali gus mendedahkannya dengan dunia luar,” katanya.

Sementara itu, Mohd Firdaus berkata, dia tidak pernah kesal menjalani kehidupan berbeza daripada remaja lain yang aktif bergaul termasuk memiliki pelajaran dan motosikal serta kereta berbanding dirinya yang hanya menunggang basikal.

“Apa pun berlaku, saya bahagia bersama ayah yang membesarkan saya sejak kecil dan saya perlu membalas pengorbanannya,” katanya.

This real story of lifes that really makes me want to cry just because the son of that stature was everybody wish and me included after me becoming a father myself. This is life and sometimes we need to just sit down and muhasabah ourself and see the wide of world beneath us. Just read this statement "Whatever happened me is happy with my father who raised me from infant till now. Father yes that was you and me and we`re all are FATHER!....

AND THIS IS OBVIOUSLY...

2010-08-19T18:23:00.002+08:00

From me and he is looking a bit more of me now comparing when he is brought to see this very world. This is a very good photograph of him and he is relishing a moment like this so me obliged to capture it. Well he is getting to a fourth month now and how time fly then. Fast and furious and if you blink then you'll miss it so enjoy it while you still can.

THIS IS FROM...

2010-08-19T18:16:00.003+08:00

His mother fingertips and in all honesty then me kinda of like this picture so here we go again. Only by now he is showing some traits of his parents and we need to hone that to be a positive attributes of him. At time me listening to Slash solo effort and by far it is not a dissapointing outing from the man himself a legend on his own right. But Fergie do suprise everybody here and she really have something X inside her. Do listen yourself and judge it on your own.

ZAWARY IN DREAMLAND

2010-08-04T18:47:00.002+08:00

He is in his own dreamland a labyrinth that oneself only know. He like to suck his thumb as we will not resort to artificial "puting" but according to my wife its only normal for a baby. That was another info in my repository. Getting better each days as i`m now enjoying my newfound status as a dad. Not me enjoying it before but more onto scared that me will hurt my baby when zawary still an infant before. Well he is now 6.7kg during his 3month injection in KDPM so he is getting bigger and me become more confidence in holding him in my arms. Yes with arms wide open son.

CTRL ALT DEL

2010-08-04T09:35:00.001+08:00

Ctrl alt del
you`re out of the windows
blue screen of death
permenantly
stop 000000000xc...

SAPPHIRE

2010-08-04T09:33:00.000+08:00

aku terlalu immortal
untuk perjalanan yang seakan eternal ini
melalui thousand life canyon
seperti carving your own niches
menjadi momen-momen yang precious
adalah sapphire dalam kehidupan ini
mesti mengetahui
anytime we`ll back to square one...

YES I GOT YOU NOW...

2010-08-02T17:00:00.002+08:00

Take this one punch now. Knocked down and out. Yes you`re out now from the ring haha maybe that was his quote right now right here. He is getting to the point when he is sending a signal to us to heed more and try to comprehend his need. Well we learned everyday bit by bit and improving our skill as a parents of a young offspring. We learned something new almost everyday. Everyday maybe.

HAVING A BIT OF FUN...

2010-08-02T16:51:00.003+08:00

Will do no harm to you isn't it? Well he is now having some fun really. Anyway he is showing some glimpses of his father really but hopefully his mother can instill some funny element in him bit by bit. Serious is OK but not all the time you know claims someone in my office and tells me need to change my way literally. Haha wake up call dude...ummm well change is permanent and everybody changes will ya?

HE IS NOW 3MONTHS OLD

2010-07-29T17:49:00.003+08:00

Yes, that was so true. How time flies then. When me look at him it all remind me of me while still be a baby like him. Alhamdulillah i`m alive till now to see and face the world on my own. He is a proof in our marriage so far and bind us more stronger than ever before. He is my sources of energy to keep on striving in this life nevertheless. Zawary you`re my manifestation in my life generally overall in our lives as well.

MY PEACEFUL SANCTUARY

2010-07-29T16:13:00.003+08:00

Dad and mom, maybe now me can't tell any words but hopefully you know that i was grateful cause bringing me to this world and give me a chance to see the world. And now me is getting bigger and with more "ragam" to be entertained by both of you now and hopefully your patience will not running thin than the air. Well this is much too comfortable for me dad and my place to be called a peaceful sanctuary with my own self alone here. Mom and dad thanks cause loving me more each days. Well maybe that was all in his mind now me as a father try to comprehend what his eyes want to say and this is nevertheless maybe a monologue between us. Just.

MY PRIVATE NATION

2010-07-28T19:50:00.005+08:00

Look really comfortable in his Sweet Cherry car and he is just staring at me while me snapping this photograph. No you can't get in papa as it only fit me nicely but alone. That includes you mama. Zawary just in his private nation while pretending that all around is nothing happened at all. Stop a moment and freeze me in shutter time lag. Frame me inside here. Maybe he is just too comfort to notice the surrounding. See he is just give a statement hey papa take my picture hurry through his eyes. Emmm zawary little by little son you`ll be a person of your own. Life is not about finding yourself but creating yourself. How true was that famous quote. Son, you`re the jewel of our heart and we wanted you to know that really.

EXORA MC

2010-07-28T17:29:00.003+08:00

MC? Emmm do Exora need MC. Not medical certificate obviously but minor change it is. Not sure about the change but what all Exora need are the power under the pedal. Maybe 1.8 engine will do better to fit into Exora body and zooming on the road like a warrior or a beast ummm tiger at very least. Proton getting it right here and heading into a right direction. A new model was in the pipeline coming into the last quarter of 2010 but let just hold back all of the anticipation. We Proton owners is just an average Joe so please dont compare Proton with others marquee. Proton is not premium brand just yet.

YOU

2010-07-28T17:09:00.001+08:00

You just a physical dump of memory
remain beneath the bridge
swept away by the waves
and probably
end up nowhere
no one knows...

LOOK AT ME MAMA PAPA

2010-07-28T17:02:00.003+08:00

See my hand is getting bigger and wanna do arm wrestling with me papa? He is getting more comfortable in the front of the camera now and strike a pose as well when he is in the good mood ya. Recently caught a fever myself and he is too getting it. After a visit to the panel clinic and get him some medication now he is getting better. Alhamdulillah. Not much "ragam" just only now seems like to follow me everywhere even when me going out for work. Oh son, not everywhere me go you can follow you know. Hehe just wait until he can talk then both of us will "pening" with all of his Q. :)

MAYBE

2010-07-27T19:46:00.000+08:00

Maybe
adalah satu kemungkinan
maybe ruangan ini
tercipta untuk seorang seperti aku
berbicara dalam silent language
hanya baris-baris kata tanpa makna intrinsic
aku tahu maybe
semua ini hanya grafitti yang empty
tetapi
seperti kata One Nation Emcees
apa aku kisah
maybe
ada benarnya
maybe
all of us need some sort of escapism
and this is for me
for you
i don't know...

NAVIGATE

2010-07-16T19:55:00.002+08:00

sesempit ruangan ini
utuskan satu suara
mungkin hanya picisan
tak siapa peduli
hanya navigate all this abundant feeling
into some nowhere destination
tapi pasti ada tempat
bagi ku labuhkan semua keresahan ini
end of all story
anyway life still long to be
aku masih berjalan
dengan destini ku sendiri
siapa tahu...
all the predicament
dihadapan menanti...

PAPA GOT A NEW BRAND BAGS...

2010-07-16T15:05:00.002+08:00

Yes anything will do now.
Anything but nothing conclusive.
Bereft me out of the highway.
City of light blinding me the way to destination everywhere.
Dream another conception.
Everything left behind but distance memories.
Friends or foe?
Grin and shrug the shoulder. I don't know.
Hello again and see you next on the horizon.
I'm run out of idea to write anything with purpose.
Me just mumbling and on and on...

STARING AT HIS DAD...

2010-07-16T15:00:00.002+08:00

Well what left for me to write down here. Just babbling around me guess. But
Daerah Sepi
ke daerah sepi
sunyi melantunkan namamu bertalu
ke ruang sempit dada ini
waktupun menjadi sesak dengan persoalan
bersama puisi tak tersudahkan
aku melalui semula jalan ini
tetapi
kesudahannya masih tetap sama dan sepi ini jadi selumbar...

PAPA LET DANCE

2010-07-16T14:47:00.004+08:00

But me well just will replied I can't dance and I can't talk...emm that was a bit of Genesis I Can't Dance song that was so popular a long time ago. Quite blurry image here but me persist to at least just posting it here for memoribilia at very least. He is getting excited being pictures all the time here. Well me at sometimes am really excited in capturing his images and put it here in our blog for all to see. Smile you`re on a candid camera by your papa son and well let just dance with a wolves now and that Costner vehicle that brings a Grammys for him. Never heard of him lately huh?

TAKE THIS PUNCH LIKE A MAN WILL YA

2010-07-15T17:06:00.003+08:00

Perhaps that whats will be uttered by my son if he can talk right at the moment me take this picture. Believe me as per now he is getting smarter each day passed by and both of us is really grateful for that as well. This is a gift of life and we all must appreciate it at very most as not all of us is lucky enough to have one. Therefore love your child as he is truly a gift from Allah swt to us who is lucky to have one. Think of it wisely and you know all of us is just like my baby once upon a time along time ago. This is circle of life. Remember what comes around goes around. Fairly enough zawary is just like me. :)

MY BABY ZAWARY IS NOW...

2010-07-15T16:52:00.003+08:00

Almost three month come 26th July. This is latest picture capture by me and he seems knowing that his father is going to take his picture so strike the pose maybe. He is now weight 6.15kg during his 2month check-up and have his injection as well. He is growing faster in the front of my very eyes. So fast then if you blink then you'll miss it. Going to trim his hair but only when he is soundly sleeping. My baby now is our crown jewel in this family. Thanks for everything. Now we`re in the next phase of our family life and zawary does bring some new excitement in our marriage. He doing well and we both still learning a new trade of being mum and dad.

EXORA 25TH ANNIVERSARY

2010-07-15T16:37:00.003+08:00

RM90K ++. Quite cumbersome for all average Joe outhere and me included. Buy this and sleep inside for me is an option if me going to purchase this Exora but that was merely a wishful thinking from inside of me. Look ravishing solid but if Proton is putting powers behind the pedal then this is really a beast on the road for maybe us who appreciate local made products like Proton here. Big family with a big wallet albeit is suited for this kind of vehicle type.

SAGA 25th ANNIVERSARY EDITION

2010-07-15T16:32:00.002+08:00

For more than RM50K and all that features in Saga 25th Anniversary uhh well that was some food for thought then. Look in better shape than mine but for RM14K extra in the dough that you need to fork our for this edition well me have no complaint then. Give some credit to Proton and they're now improving bit by bit. Give a chance for Proton to at least celebrated their 50th Anniversary and see what`ll happened next. That quite a long time to go no?.

THE EXPENDABLES AGAIN....

2010-07-15T16:25:00.002+08:00

Emm somehow or rather me do feel inside me that this flick will be huge as you can see from all the cast are all big name in their own right. Well at least. For 80mill in budgeting and some cynics [who else - talk only but no action] say that bucks all goes to the casting department and left none to the others aspect in this production. That yet to be seen unless after this flick is been released on the cinema but just wait as the screening in just around the corner in August. Soon to be unleash on our shores. Turkey or not we`ll see later but for now just hold back all the anticipation. Back to the old skool of action heroes. Welcome break from all that CGI mastery. For now at least.

GEN2 - SE

2010-06-09T15:32:00.002+08:00

New Gen-2 that already been launched recently. At least Proton give something new to the buyer outside there with the certain budget. Although not many drastic change for this model but well at least there a few improvements been made here. Me not a Paul Tan type of person to talk about all the spec here. Just giving my opinion here. All that is. OK Proton keep on working up your socks emmm stocks i mean.

25th - PROTON

2010-06-09T15:27:00.003+08:00

Give a credit where its due cause Proton nevertheless is giving us that me and you of course a chance to drive a car of our own. So put aside all the criticism or scepticisme and by all mean we at least talk about Proton in a good vibe. Furthermore since me do own a Proton Saga BLM myself. Unless you`re driving others then stop yourself then criticising your own car. 25th in the making so let see what the next 25years can bring into brand Proton.

REALITY FUGITIVE

2010-06-09T10:07:00.003+08:00

I`m running out of time
and space devoid me any breathing space
my heart becomes vacuum
there's a tiny room to manouvre
this is a reality fugitive
a conundrum of the remaining hope
me ain't a highway
to escape into another solitary journey
another sanctuary
or soul asylum
i`m behind a wall of hidden agenda
comparatively
beneath it all
fugitive i'm
reality derisory...

CONUNDRUM

2010-06-08T17:32:00.003+08:00

In conundrum
meanwhile
soul embargo taking me
another twist
into the past reborns the storm
not chasing
anymore shadow of doubt
situation i`m in
beyond any reasonable doubt
a roller coaster explanation
draw me back to the conclusion
yet unravel
yet the only answers that is available now
just void my inner thought
in conundrum
that even me myself
can't drag myself back to the surface....

SLEEPING IN MY CAR...

2010-06-04T14:48:00.005+08:00

Sleeping in my car hehe that was another tribute to the 80' where me just a kiddo. And that was a song from Roxette whereby me do own their greatest hits album. Not bad a collection yes even one of my office mate labelling me a guy from the 80' which is not quite a compliment as me only born in 74' and by 80' me just reach my 6years old on this planet earth. And not even know MU or Roxette...what thats? But now me was on the vertical horizon then and my baby is just a natural progression in our life then.

MY BABY YOU.............

2010-06-04T14:41:00.002+08:00

Hehe that was a part of Marc Anthony song and really my baby you`re the reason I can fly. But here he is sleeping so sound and never bothered about the surrounding around him. Maybe he is such a good pretender like his father as well. Just kidding no. There a lot of snapshot left in Canon A520 and might probably end up here. Just wait and see. Soon will be.

LENA DIULIT INTAN MAYBE

2010-06-02T14:05:00.003+08:00

That was a song from Wings and perhaps best suited the description of my baby here. Captured with my Nokia 6280 and he is sleeping like no one business here. The day before he is going bald. And all the others pictures was in Canon A520 with his mother. So baby here is getting a well rested day before his kenduri.

ONE MONTH OLD

2010-06-02T10:43:00.003+08:00

He is now weight 5.25kg and length 55cm. His BMI was 17.1 which is a good indicator for him. Hoping he is doing well at the moment and soon will be brought back here in our home in Bandar Bukit Puchong 2 by next week. Can't wait for them both to get home really soon. And last night albeit not all the match between Soderling and Federer been watch by me and at last now Federer is bow out from Grand Slam in QF. Come on nothing last forever no. And zawary papa sayang kamu juga mama.

THE MATRIX

2010-05-24T14:11:00.003+08:00

Yes this is what we call a marquee movies that made the name for Wachowski Brothers to the masses outhere. And Keanu knows kung-fu here and if not everyone wonder but only me maybe then after this why oh why Keanu never appeared in another martial arts film. Maybe he is lazy practising his newfound skills or no scripts of a likehood being offered to him well me dunno. But this The Matrix is all but have a resemblence from the manga in Japan if you paying attention to it very well. But rest assured this is still the best from Keanu till this date.

TERMINATOR 2

2010-05-24T13:58:00.004+08:00

Maybe the best action movies of all time. All the ingredient of a great movie was here. The best villain ever in T-1000 [Robert Patrick best ever role] and Arnold at his peak of his power. Add in the strong female character in Linda Hamilton then you've the perfect action film. Perhaps the most dissapointed things was when Cameroon decided against making anymores of his brainchild by telling the masses i`ve told all in T-2. What a dissapointment then. The Matrix 1 & 2 but forget the third installment [not much story in it] is perhaps come closer in matching T-2 in terms of good all round action movies. Excitement, action, drama, plot / character development etc. T-2 is still ranked among the best action movies of all time. Period.

ANOTHER POSTER FOR THE EXPENDABLES

2010-05-24T12:48:00.003+08:00

Look less intimidating but on the artistic view it has a nice touch and reach the target audience with the intention of showing the meaning of expendables itself. But honestly me do like the former then the latter poster but it's depend on the individu perception. Look like it gonna be big me assumed but well just wait for the reception in the box-office once released. But if there is no box-office then forget bout the sequel or whatever. If there is a sequel then me just thinking why not bringing in Mark Dacascos [Brotherhood Of The Wolf fame] onboard and have a scenes fighting Jason Statham. No Li me just wanted him to have a duel with Yen - no one else. Well just another wishful thinking of me. Nevertheless.

THE EXPENDABLES POSTER

2010-05-24T12:42:00.002+08:00

Look intimidating at first and based on what me have been explore on the net and read on wikipedia it look like a promising franchise. Gathered all the action star from 80-90 era's albeit not everyone in jumping in the ship but still it look worthwhile. Just imagine if Stallone come across this Donnie Yen [if he ever be looking at this guy works] then pitted him against Jet Li in 2nd installments maybe then can you imagine the grandeur scale of fighting skills will be available here. That was my wishful thinking cause up until now there no notable fight-scenes between them. Sigh. But just wait for this outcoming soon. And zawary will be three month then. Still in early days to bring him to the cinema then.

YAWNING HE IS LIKE ME

2010-05-24T10:44:00.002+08:00

Look here he is yawning like his father as well. Maybe he need some fresh air of oxygen as my baby just been on this world for hours only. Son, you`re my jewel in my heart with your mom. No one else will come in between. Hopefully, you`ll be a crown in our family. Zawary must be "jiwa kental" like your father k son. Will see you soon enough this coming weekend. Can't wait for the day to come. Miss you mama and son.

IN A DREAMLAND

2010-05-19T15:41:00.003+08:00

He is just sleeping now and that was part of his growing process then. And the bottle beside him is a halwa kundur water to lower his jaundice and alhamdulillah now is being cure and he is getting better day after day and faster becoming our hero. Well, zawary is resting now but me just can't stop capturing him with my Nokia 6280. And putting it here as a long lasting memories of him.

AMONG THE FIRST PICTURE

2010-05-18T12:12:00.003+08:00

Actually this is the first time me seeing my baby boy after safely being delivered and me azan and qamat him soon afterward. Alhamdulillah all is safe and both of my son and wife is doing pretty well at this very moment. And he is getting bigger day by day and now me just can't wait to hold him again in my arms.

IN HIS MOTHER ARM

2010-05-17T12:28:00.004+08:00

At Klinik Kesihatan Hutan Melintang for daily checkup. And he seems to be feel very comfortable here and sleep really well. For today as my wife told me briefly that his weight up to this day was 4.9kg. Wow you`re getting bigger my son and hopefully you`ll be healthier Insya-Allah amin. Will see you soon and nobody know how much i miss you both and no words can tell about it but anyway soon me will bring you home to our little sanctuary in Baiduri Courts and will be shining some more with your presence son. Alhamdulillah everything is fine now. Waiting for you to come home and mummy too.

BABY...ZAWARY BURHANUDDIN

2010-05-14T16:23:00.003+08:00

Well there a lot to say but me now almost have nothing else to say but i do miss my baby boy there. Will soon meet him on his 1st month of age being in this world. How time fly? But that was an indication that time is fast leaving us all behind them. Certainly there a lot of things to be done yet and now we`re just in the right path of our direction. And zawary you`ll grow up fast and that for sure. Now on this day me write down this you're now in third weeks of your existence. Speak about time then maybe i`ll lost a lot of explanation then but now me are more sane due to my baby boy born and now you`re my manifestation in my life. Therefore there will be a brave new world of mine and me will be more like to soldiering on. My happiness is here with me now and for that thanks mom cause bringing our son into this world.

SLEEPING AT HOME

2010-05-14T16:06:00.005+08:00

Finally after 9 days in the Hospital Teluk Intan then on Sunday 02nd May 2010 then my baby is been released from the hospital. Really a big relief from me as well from all concerned. And me captured during his sleeping time and putting it here for a lasting memories of him. Sleep really well here because after bath and maybe he feel cold and comfortable in his grandfather home in Kg Kebun Baru. Good for him and us. And zawary be a good good boy then.

1st DAY

2010-05-14T15:26:00.006+08:00

With his great grandmother at Hospital Teluk Intan. And for the 1st time he open his eyes to see the world and with arm wide open is a perfect analogy for him. We standing in awe cause we just created life. Welcome zawary to our life. May you give us a moment to cherish while watching you growing up to be a wise man. Insya-Allah amin. As a father i'm proud to be a dad and your mum as well. A new phase of our life has just begun and we'll be prepared for the next challenge in our life with the jewel of our heart. Nevertheless this is all a gift of life that need to be appreciated and to be loved and only a parent will know the feeling inside us right at the moment. No words to defined as it all is just a natural progression in our marriage and now is our family. Me, wife and zawary. Perhaps there'll be an addition in a couple of years. But for now honey let bring up this baby together in a way we know we can.

OUR BABY BOY IS BORN.

2010-05-14T15:08:00.010+08:00

My baby boy...big and healthy...
Father: Zulkefli Ahmad Bin Mohamed Khan
Mother: Nurul Isma Hafidzah Binti Norruddin

Baby Info:
Name: Zawary Burhanuddin Bin Zulkefli Ahmad
Meaning: Burhanuddin [dalil / bukti agama].
DOB: 26th April 2010 4.15pm [13 Jamadilawal 1431]
POB: Hospital Teluk Intan Perak Darul Ridzuan
Weight: 3.75kg
MyKid: 100426-08-0645

KOSONG

2010-04-01T16:23:00.003+08:00

Aku
kaku
membeku
masih mahu melastik ke bintang
bintang kejora ku pun bersatu
tanpa metafora
yang masih wasangka
sebelum malam menjadi lebih kusam
gramafon jiwaku berlagu sendu seribu bahasa
adalah monolog untuk sesiapa jua yang gelisah
pasti
satu destinasi infiniti
menjemput realiti dan fantasi
menjadi analog 1.01
tetapi mengapa leksikon ku semakin picisan
dan lokasi diriku jua
seperti di hutan belantara yang kosong
pinjamkan aku smith & wesson mu
ku membidik di antara dua garisan
yang simpatetik
esok ku kirimkan belasungkawa
yang si marhain itu tertembak dirinya sendiri
sadis bukan
tetapi tak terlalu tragis jika mahu dibandingkan
dengan ketiadanilainya flatliner seorang bayi
dilempar bagai garbage
ditelan si komodo atau diratah si rotweiler
bandingkan tuan2 & puan2
itukah garbage mentaliti dasawarsa ini
tinggalkan satu ruang obituari
tuliskan saja tanpa nama
kerana itu saja valuenya bukan
kosong...

THE DEMISE OF....

2010-04-01T16:16:00.002+08:00

Bandar Bukit Puchong website but its already a few days now and maybe it`ll lay down and RIP. Sad but true and nothing last forever no...

WAJA REPLACEMENT?

2010-04-01T16:09:00.005+08:00

Waja replacement maybe but up until now still in the smokescreen. Nothing concrete emerge but is look a better than its predeccessor nevertheless. The price? RM55K. That what a circulated rumour on the net but well waiting this model to be mass produced is all what we can do now. So till then saving enough dough is a wise thing to do...and the name is still unknown while i`m writing this down...

SATRIA NEO LOTUS R3

2010-04-01T15:45:00.004+08:00

RM115K. Yes it was a premium price for me at least but this is really a beast in the making of Proton history in a year to come. Good effort in making a brand Proton. A right direction again and never forget improvements is what we need now rather than CAP from the outside. Proton way to go...and support is all we must give nevertheless...what a way to celebrate 25th anniversary of Proton by unveiling this beast...and by its 50th anniversary perhaps brand Proton is all we can be proud of.

STAGNANT

2010-03-25T18:41:00.002+08:00

I`m still here
watching all the good things and bad past me by
not one moment
i`m getting hurt enough just to watch you go
even the moon in my heart get cracking
if i could turn back time
then me wouldn't change anything now
there a light
sensing a movement in my stagnant
i`m less inspired to say anything
so kiss this goodbye
as a perfect send off...

PROTON PERSONA ELEGANCE

2010-03-23T13:36:00.002+08:00

Elegance? That all is depend on your eyes of observation. Much credit me might say to Proton cause they're at least now is heading in the right direction. Build a car that people want to buy. Kudos. A lot of naysayers will just say that this car is just a facelift or whatever the terms. Cause you`re not even qualified to design one car hence still wanted to talk big. But let forget about the contradiction as me give the credit where is due. Yes Proton still need to work their sock off but at least there a positive sign on the horizon.

TERBENGKALAI

2010-03-23T13:28:00.002+08:00

terbengkalainya satu impian
oleh satu ketidakpastian
yang hilangnya penyeri kehidupan
satu kebetulan yang hanya menawarkan satu jawapan
meruntunkan hati jua perasaan
gundah gulana...
jua ku mengorak langkah
sebagaimana longlainya pengharapan
masih ada sedikit sinar disebalik kelamnya malam
tak sedasawarsa aku nomadik
hanya untuk tangiskan satu kehilangan
bukanpun mutiara jauhari
sekadar sebutir bintang yang sekecil kerikil
mengajar ku erti berterimakasih
kerana aku masih disini
berdiri sebagai aku yang tahu
apa itu kehidupan
apa itu kematian
kita hanya sekadar disini
kesementaraan yang terbengkalai
menanti lengkapnya destini di Luh Mahfuz [wallahualam]....

BLACK HOLE

2010-03-18T19:15:00.002+08:00

All of us have their own black hole that will drown you so deeply. Fight with all of your free will just to get yourself out of it. Soul abyss is like a place to spend so meaningless all your life force. Then be a stronger yourself. Kick out all of the doubt and see the light at the end of your observation eyes and keep it straight cause life is just great. Another journey to be accomplished. Look out the sign and believe when the hardship is over then something rosy will emerged. Yourself. Better perspective. Better focus.

HURT SO BADLY BUT I'M SURVIVED...!

2010-03-18T19:08:00.002+08:00

badly hurt in encounters
with someone so formidable like you
but i learn lesson the hard way
always the another way round
never in the situation so easy to get out
it`s makes me stronger than before
yes
hurt so badly but i`m survived
another day to breath a fresh new air
spell my name with my own blood red
so tomorrow
i`ll be a fighter
but much better
and thank you in making me one...

FEMES

2010-03-09T15:21:00.002+08:00

Sumer orang nak jadi femes. Masuklah tv buat lawak semberono atau melalak sakan pas tu mintak SMS. Kau boleh jadi femes...! Tak percaya cubalah sendiri...hehe maggi aku sudah kembang...

IF

2010-03-09T15:15:00.002+08:00

If you want to leave
there is nothing left to say
and there nothing much i can do
pack your bag
leave it all behind
no baggage
and reason whatsoever
so call it even now
under such circumstances
what comes around will goes around
but well
life goes on
there`ll be a light at the end of a tunnel
if there ain't nothing to shows up then
just shrug my head
i`m trying my best at all time
walk on...

ECHO

2010-03-03T17:00:00.002+08:00

Your voices is echo in my head
deep down
unsighted from the place so far
hiding from all the reason
to be here
is yet another accomplishments
that never crossed my mind
either way
thanks
because making me one good
lonely soldier boy
and i`ll keep soldiering on
finding another me
life is about progression
i`ll never standstill
and wait for another hello from the others side of you
so long
echoing far far away now...

KELUARKAN AKU...!

2010-02-09T11:57:00.002+08:00

Keluarkan aku
satu idea
tapi sekarang
itu agak mustahil
kerana my brain is being occupied
oleh satu language asing
bukan html
tetapi visual basic yang aku sendiri tak tahu
apa itu hukum normanya
so
keluarkan aku sekarang
sebelum aku rebel...!

PADANG HARMONI

2010-02-09T11:51:00.004+08:00

angin semalam membeku di ingatan
telah terlupuskan sebuah sentuhan
lantas perkiraan untuk permulaan yang baharu
ku temui semula sepatu hitam ku
berlari bersama impian seroja
tahu satu tujuan
damai yang hakiki
lagukan kesejahteraan yang abadi
padang harmoni
hitungan yang terakhir
amalan kamu
menjadi penentu
sementara bernafas ini
bersamalah membina sebuah perhentian
disana yang abadi
sekalian umat manusia...

SOLITARY

2010-02-09T11:47:00.003+08:00

solitary journey
into the unknown
hurt maybe
but
every possibilities is another lesson to be learn
anyway
nothing is permanent
this exclusion remains unscathed
no another reason
solitary i`m maybe
the answer is yet...universally spoken.

FREEDOM

2010-01-22T17:53:00.004+08:00

angin bersepai ditepi jalan
sampai tak terbilang kesan retak-retak digigi waktu
ada satu skrol tergantung di dinding
mengeja satu erti maha sepi
yang semalam aku pergi membawa diri jauh-jauh
dari sebarang pemerhatian
bukan hiatus mahupun hibernasi
meditasi atau solitari
hanya jeritan mentaliti rebel...
bebas
freedom...!

WITH ARMS WIDE OPEN

2010-01-22T09:58:00.002+08:00

Well I just heard the news today
It seems my life is going to change
I closed my eyes, begin to pray
Then tears of joy stream down my face

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open

Well I don't know if I'm ready
To be the man I have to be
I'll take a breath, I'll take her by my side
We stand in awe, we've created life

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
I'll show you everything ...oh yeah
With arms wide open..wide open

[Guitar Break]

If I had just one wish
Only one demand
I hope he's not like me
I hope he understands
That he can take this life
And hold it by the hand
And he can greet the world
With arms wide open...

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
I'll show you everything..oh yeah
With arms wide open....wide open

TUGU

2010-01-21T09:58:00.003+08:00

ku binakan
satu tugu
peringatan
sekadar satu ingatan
bahawasanya hati ini telahpun dilukai
oleh insan lain
meski separuh jiwa ini hancur luluh
hidup mesti terus berlangsung
dan ku layarkan
bahtera hati ke pelabuhan usia
bermusim silih berganti
ku terus jua mencari damai dihati
dan tugu itu kini
sekadar memoribilia waktu silam
sebelum pudar warna hampa
tinggallah satu illusi...

WALL

2010-01-13T11:18:00.003+08:00

to the wall
we`re heading
one way or another
a journey to scalp
another escapism
but well
everything change
and no huge demand from me
all apologies
forgotten past
yet present is today
seperating our way.

WISE

2010-01-13T11:11:00.004+08:00

Yes i break your heart now
and sorry for the unconvinient truth
call it even now
better say that way
welcome to the bottom
only a season in the abyss
you should know by now
while nothing is forever
scars remain permanent
beneath it all
we learn something precious
even fragility of our heart is being compromise
today
we`re the better person
sometimes everything you want is not
everything you need
to the wall of confirmity
we`re all heading
one headlight.